I have a full blown sugar addiction. I have for years, and I’m sure that if sugar were taken as seriously as heroin, I would have been admitted into rehab years ago. What also makes my sugar addiction a real addiction is the SHAME. Holy Moly.
Just to highlight the lengths I would go to in order to cover my tracks:
- I had a secret stash.
- When my husband told me he was going out, I would get SO EXCITED knowing I could binge without judgment.
- When hubby was out, I would BINGE beyond the point of discomfort. My body would be in all sorts of pain. I would even get sweats!
While over the past couple of years I’ve gotten much better at moderating my intake (which I contribute to creating an overall better relationship with food), this past weekend was no Bueno!
It was Greek Easter. And I don’t know if it’s every Greek household or just our own, but if you are not passed out in a food coma post meal, something was wrong with the food and you’ve just insulted your host. While I left a little early to put our babe to bed, my husband was so kind and brought me back a plate of desserts. Which I devoured. In one sitting. My stomach felt off but I went to bed. However, throughout the night, I woke up periodically in a panic. And while it was only momentary, I felt frantic – and that really bothered me.
The more I reflected, the more I came to realize that historically speaking, there’s a pretty strong relationship between my sugar consumption and feeling anxious. And that’s not cool. It sounds terrible – but honestly, I can tolerate sugar messing with my body for a day or two. But my head? No way! I don’t have time to knowingly invite anxiety into my life. So I’m making a firm decision. I’m going to go 40 days with no added, refined, processed sugars.
I don’t care to get to a place where my life is completely void of sugar; however, I don’t want it disrupting me as I allowed it to this past weekend. And if cutting it out reduces anxiety, increases energy and makes me feel better overall – I’m down. Wish me luck! And if you have any tips or suggestions, send them my way 🙂
This blog was originally published on Toronto Wellness Counselling.